The Diary of a Grieving Wife

 October 25, 2020 Phil, I has been 9 days since you died.  9 days since I kissed you goodbye with the assumption that I would see you the next day.  You told us everyday that you would die soon but we all just tried to live as if you would live forever. As you loved to tell me, I was wrong. You had a pain in your back, you said it was in your kidney area.  I could tell that it was making you quite uncomfortable and I asked you to stay home and just go tomorrow.  As usual, you just wanted to get the job done so you and AJ left. You made it to your destination safely and I breathed a sigh of relief. But when I texted goodnight, you never answered so I texted AJ to ask how you were.  He didn't answer either so I texted again saying I was worried because no one was answering me.  Then Sid brought me the phone and said to go get my Ativan before taking it.  I said "I guess that means Dad is in the hospital".   It did mean that but you were al...